Music

I woke up one morning, and felt as though somebody had thrown a lasso around my waist. As though by an invisible force I felt pulled towards the piano where I saw my Course in Miracles book was lying open on lesson 124 —
Let me remember I am one with God. Without consciously knowing what I was doing I felt a creative force singing, playing, and writing through me, and within half an hour I had a whole song based on the lyrics of this lesson.

While I had tears streaming down my face feeling the pure Source this inspiration came from, at the same time I felt shame coming up. Even though I had already been studying A Course in Miracles for three years at the point, I had never sang about God and neither was I intending to do so. Ever since I was a young girl I dreamed about becoming a big pop star, and I was well on my way to making that dream come true. “What would people say if all of the sudden I started singing about God?!”, I thought to myself. I went on with my day and tried to let go of what happened that morning.

But the next day, the exact same thing happened…

Again I felt a pull from my navel towards the piano, and another Course song magically poured out of me.
This continued to happen each day for about two weeks until I had a whole stack of songs, all coming from different Course in Miracles lessons.

A year later these songs were catching dust on the shelve, and I was on the popular TV show called The Voice, singing live on TV for millions of people every Friday night. It seems as though that childhood dream of mine finally started to come true, but even though I looked very successful from the outside, from the inside I felt broken. 2015 was a rough year, losing people I loved dearly, and feeling deeply lost myself as well.

I saw myself standing on stage with my fancy designer dress on, when I realised that all this glitter and glamour could never give me what I truly longed for. All I wanted at that point in my life was to feel truly connected to God and have inner peace, and it was then that I thought back on that stack of Course in Miracles songs that I had put on the shelve.

I realised that the sole purpose for these songs to find me was to help me and its listeners to find inner peace and remember the Love we truly are.

And so in that moment I made the decision to give my voice over to whatever Source gave me those songs.

“Okay, You got me”, I thought to myself. “When I’m done with this show, I’ll make a CD out of your song, just tell me where to go and what to do.”

This was the beginning of me learning to step back, and let Spirit lead the way. It was quite the journey of undoing the “singer identity” I always had, but I realise now more and more that my voice was always given to me as a goal, but always as a means to guide people into the heart, and remind them of their own innocence.

The first album I released is called The Light Has Come, and contains the songs that came through me in the process I describe above. My second album is called Remember You’re Dreaming, followed by the third album called Winds of Change. You can listen to my music on any of your preferred streaming platforms, or buy the downloads or CD’s in my webshop.

Watch the video below to see more about the process of making my first album.